..my heart bleeds nolonger for your love..

~my name~

2004-12-27T03:43:23Z

i wish i could change my live journal name..but i dont wanna make a new one..this sucks

i want it to be scarred heart..god damnit

~holiday~

2004-12-25T20:39:56Z

MERRY FUCKING CHRISTMAS ! AND I LOOVVE MY LOVVERRS !

SUPERMAN (who is a sexy beast)..your my hero !

~Life I GuesS~

2004-12-21T02:49:29Z

well life is ok now..skool is gay as usuall..but on friday i had a really good conversation with jiana about friends and stuff and how i hardly have any..it made me feel alott better so thanks for everything jiana..ur really easy to talk to so now i know i have someone like that <3 jose is so awesome..him and his mannly power of five..haha good times...much love <3

FIVE DAYS TILL' CHRISTMAS ! WOO HOO !

~WoW~

2004-12-15T05:59:25Z

ooo maan..i havnt updated in forever..dont really hav to much to say but skool is like taking up all my time during the week which sucks..i got a myspace so u shuld all get one too..umm especially ryan beyer..and i loove my loovers..

justin (bffl)

ryan (connected)

jason (sweet thang)

shea (sexy beast)

manny (loover)

juanyboy (whitewash)

raymond (so tite)

~YeaH~

2004-11-29T02:02:48Z

soo life is pretty gay...i started talkin to tyler and hes so awesome..hahaha totally not a geek like he says he is <3 ..we got alot in common so hes easy to talk to..yeah..and the one guy who in my eyes is perfect..i cant even talk to him..wtf..we used to talk all the time and there was so much to say..but things changed..too much in my likings if u ask me..plus this weather sux..its soo coolld

leave ur name on comments and ill tell u what i think about you <3

~GooD DaY~

2004-11-25T00:27:22Z

today was a good day..all my classes were chiilll..mrs castillo bought my lame ass story that morgan made up so i wuldnt get in trouble for not havin my books..hahahaha...tommy has ring worm infested balls..j/k...lunch was fuun..and spanish class was even fun wich is weird..but w.e...hahahaha..i luv ryan's laugh..its oh soo cuute..biology..drew sum pictures..so basically did nuthin..track was awesome cuz jennefer ate shit in the long jump pit...HAHAHAHAHAHAHA...great times..tooo bad sarah missed it..but my moms being gay and wont let me go out cuz she says i need my rest for a big day at my aunt and uncles house...wtf..im goin there to EAT..wutta faggot..w.e.it was a cool day though

JUSTIN DERAS IS MY BEST FRIEND FOR LIFE ! I LOVE HIM !

~BlanK~

2004-11-24T01:12:44Z

theres not much to say..tommy ur awesome..ryan and juanyboy are awesome..viviana is awesome..heather is awesome..im glad wer friends..school sucks..some guy who i dont know who it is, is writing me comments saying he loves me and stuff..which is so nice..but probably isnt true, just some prank,cuz im ugly..so whatever..i wish i knew who it was..cuz any guy who wuld do that is so sweeet..

~SchooL~

2004-11-22T23:47:03Z

so school is pretty gay except for lunch time..i fell asleep in language wile people wer reading outloud..then casie called on me..grr..science is fuun i got a goood test grade..woo..lunch was fuun too cuz tommy is funny <3..but hell get ringworm form that duude..and casey says im gonna die from chicken pox..havnt had them yet..damnit..morgan ur soo awesome..i luv you <3 hahaha tchweny..and faggot..wow i luv the way u say those words..lol..math would suk without you..justin deras..that massage was fuckin awesoome...i owe u one..but it feeltt soo goood <3 ALMOST THANKSGIVING...FOOOOD <3

moorre people..soorry i forgot to add you <3

michelle (short shorts)
kevin
shea
cierra (cousin)
tyler
alix
brandon (player)
kelly
casady (cousin
adrian
will
matt (hott sex)
mike
diane (barbie)
cristina
annie
justin (beaner)
ricky
cassie
jordan (beast)
brian
david
andee
donald (loover)
steven
cortney
shane
eric (buddy)

~FriendS~

2004-11-22T03:09:22Z

me comprades ...

viviana (pimp)
taylor
lauren
mely (rebecca)
lynn
tommy
kayla
brittany c.
alexis (asian)
casie
laura
dan
brittany l.
rachele
morgan
maria
natalie (pimp)
blake
kevin
korey
jesse
corey (lol)
lauren c.
ryan (bff)
kevin
casey
jason (lover)
johnny
kyle
stephen
chelsea (pimp)
josh
greg (bff)
megan
sharokeena
madelyn
chris
brent (stalker)
justin t.
chelsea
juanyboy
justin d. (bff)
raymond
danny
eric (hott)
alyssa
sarah
loui (ass)
samantha
kaitlin
heather
sarah k. (lion)
alex

...if i forgot you im me so i can add you <3

WOO HOO ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN BEYER ! I LOVE YOU !

~WhateveR~

2004-11-20T06:26:34Z

i swear to GOD..people are so fucking gay...i cant even begin to explain..but casey ur friends are so awesome..haha so at the rally there was a streaker...skyler sweeney..haha hes so damn awesome..that guy has sum major balls..good times <3 haha taylor my friends are weird but i know u like them..dan ur so hilarious..i luv u and blake both..we hav sum amazing times <3 i saw spongebob and it suked ..it was soo gay...wtf..i luv all my coool friends..ill make a list laaaterr

~WeekenD~

2004-11-15T03:33:39Z

uh..i didnt hav a very good weekend..mary came over and shes cool..had sum bondin time with my brother..it was awesome..i luv him <3...went to that san sai place..it was good..but my bros freinds was there with his lil brother..ooo hes hott..and hes fifteen..sweet <3..and they kept starin...umm..but it was gay..lost my soccer game...i was tired..and things made me mad..but justin made me laf..thanks justin ur so awesome <3 and u will enjoy polar express because i sed so <3

~GoooD SongS~

2004-11-11T23:55:14Z

somwhere beyond happiness and sadness, i need to calculate what creates my oh madness..and im addicted to ur punishment, your the master and i am waiting for disaster...im feeling rational so come protectional to tell the truth i am..getting away with murder..
~Getting Away With Murder, Papa Roach~

with the big fake smiles and stupid lies while deep inside ur bleeding..no u dont what wuts its like when nothin feels alrite..no u dont know wut its like to be like me..to be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark, to be kicked when ur down, to feel like uve been pushed around..to be on the edge of breaking down and noones there to save you..welcum to my life
~Welcome To My Life, Simple Plan~

shed a tear cuz im missing you..still ok to smile..grl i think about u everday now..was a time when i wanst sure but u set my mind at ease, there is no doubt ur im my heart now, sed woman take it slow..itll work itself out fine..all we need is just a little patience..
~Patience, Guns N' Roses~

shes got a smile that it seems to me, it reminds me of chuldhood memories.. where evrything was as gracious as the bright blue skies.. now and then when i see her face it takes me away to that special place and if i stare too long id probly break down and cry..
~Sweet Child O' Mine, Guns N' Roses~

theres a place just south of witches valley, where they say the wind wont blow..and they only speak in whipsers of the name..theres lady they say who feeds the darkness its eats rite from her hands..with a cry and shout, shell search u out and freeze u wer ull stand..lady evil, evil..shes a magical mystical woman..
~Lady Evil, Black Sabbath~

~I LovE My BrotheR~

2004-11-11T03:57:54Z

hahaha..my brother jasper is so awesome..wer so tite its not even funny..i luv him <3 hes fuckin hilarious and is soo nyce..haha..sharol and megan thinks hes hott...w.e..hes chill...its like wer connected..i can read his mind...plus i had a shitty dream last nite to..that my house burned down and jasper died..i culdnt save anything cuz the fire was to big...like i guess womeone was tryin to kill us..then i went to skool and i skipped class everyday..didnt eat or talk for like days..till this guy came up to me and talkd to me..he told me he herd the story from around and that he culd help cuz he knew how i felt..and i broke down crying in the middle of the quad in front of everyone cuz i was sad..then he pulled me up by my waist and we wer hugging in the quad for like ever..until i woke up..i was crying...

~BirthdaY~

2004-11-09T22:56:50Z

it was my birthday today..chelsea gave me an adorable card..and brittany gave me the cuuutest animal ever...i luv u guys..thanks <3 and steven wants to get me a present..<3 i got so many hugs today it was outrageous..i luv hugs <3 and i found out wich heather keeps writng on my lj..hahaha..luv ya grl <3 well..ima add sum pics later wen mary cums..woo hoo.. <3

~HatE OverpowerS~

2004-11-09T00:02:11Z

i hate people who use people...i hate people who try to hard...i hate people who lie...i hate people who always want to be the center of attention...i hate skanks and hoes...i hate people who say wer friends wen wer not...i hate people hu date just cuz someone asked them out...so why are we freinds ?

i hate your backstabbing soul...i hate pain..i hate heartaches...i hate the way u betray me...i hate the nitemares you bring...i hate your black heart...i hate how u tear apart my soul...i hate holding it all back...i hate just being freinds...i hate how ull never be mine...so why do i love you ?

its my birthday tommorow

~WoO HoO~

2004-11-07T23:30:48Z

natalie shriner..chelsea may be ur sexi twin..but u are my I.as in the second letter in..P - I- M- P..lol..i love you..and happy birthday <3 viviana..me ..and chelsea are the three musketeers and i love them dearly..and viviana is my p squared beaner..haha..we make one hell of a team with blake..<3 awww...john..im soo srry i hurt u..i dint mean to ..lol..<3 morgan..ur so frikn funny..haha..jon is obsessed..but its cool..maybe ull go to rpom wit him..awwww..how cute..and kaitlin..ur soo pretty<3 i made new freinds wooo hoo...alissa harkness..and cindy..you guys are sooo funny..wow..and so awesome..im so glad wer freinds cuz u rock..haha..maria you suk..she nailed me rite in the eyes with ice..grr..i was tearing soo bad..lol..but it was pretty funny..she sed sry like twenty times..alissa b..ur sooo hilarious.. good times..luv ya all..and wer soo gonna go teepee his house..cant wait <3

~FuckiN HottieS~

2004-11-06T03:16:31Z

skool is hard...but freinds are cool...marlina is in love with casey bryan lowe..but its all good..they need to meet <3 and ryan beyer..hes cool..wer tite i guess..and if u are reading this ryan..u can get alot of grls..beleive me i know...i love my cousins..lol...pancakes..wtf was that about..<3 good times..oo yeah..today i was walkn to class..i swear, this guy was like running full spead rit at me...he was fucking hott..but he came like an inch away from running in to me..then a second later he grabs my ass...so i turn round and hes like starin at me licking his lips...god damn he was fine..<3 cant wait till monday ..hell yeah..

~YeaH~

2004-10-19T02:28:57Z

so skool is pretty gay..ma and carter had to do this spanish oral report thang over again in class today and it sukd fatty balls...but w.e...ryan beyer is tha shit..i luv u soo much baby...yeah..it poured today at skool...i was in a skrt wit mary's sweater..she was in wite pants with kharis' sweater..and she was in jeans wit my jacket..wut a fuckin day..tomorrow will be better tho..i hope.....i need one bug hug..ryan givs good hugs..so duz korey..yeah..

~UmmmmmM~

2004-10-13T01:26:56Z

It's funny how things work out, The ones we need don't know we're there.....adrian cadena....i so agree....so umm y duz life hav to be so hard i ask..so shea gasbari..or however u spell it..shes awesome..yeah..she slapped me today at skool..i thot it was loui so i strted beat his ass..or try cuz hes so damn tall.....and sexi..with a nice ass...anyways...he hit me bak tho..fucker....wow..juan is my best guy friend..mary is my best girl friend..sept shes fukin dieng..wut the hell..hast been at skool for like days...and kharis is my favorite friend...thank god for megan best..eric..ur amazing...much luv baby...and so is casey..without them all id bleed the blood of my soul ass it poors down my cheeks forming a puddle of broken love on the ground seeping thru to the demonds below as they boil my heart for joy....

~Last nite..party nitE~

2004-10-09T21:09:14Z

taylor...omg...ur so awesome its amazing...ur friends are cool to..kik ass party...haha..so umm we went to band jam and it was alot of fun...the shows wer awesome...bryan gonzalez, eric fetch...u guys are the best slam dancers eva..i saw adrian and ryan beyer..it was cool cuz there so chill...i luv them ! and we saw jeremy...we had a brudle luv fite, but i won in the end ! and i saw sharokeena and uh megan..there so hott..i luv them..to me their bff...and eva...then latr we went teepeing..umm cant spell..w.e....and it was pretty cool..couldnt stop lafn..and i kept gettn yelld at but still fun...

~SweeT LovE~

2004-09-29T05:24:56Z

"now adays im just a soft hearted lover who just wants a girl to talk to and cuddle with lol"....adrian..thats the sweetest thing ive evr herd..omg.. ur soo awesome..much luv babe..looks like that makes two of us..cept wit a guy for me ! lol...! i need sum lovin...

~.....LikE SmokE........~

2004-09-24T23:59:31Z

....i hav nuthing to say really..this is getting gay..but it kinda gets my feelings out so...skool is only cool becuz i hav friends hu hav been there for me..maybe not as much as i wish..but this years is ok...i thank god every nite for mary and kharis..cuz witout them..i wuldnt hav any best friends..or any close friends...life has turnd its bak on me..it has left me out to hang...but evry day i feel a lil luckier..then somedays..like death is upon me...nothing lasts forever..if i had one wish..that wuld be it..things to last forevr..luv and friendship is like smoke..lik drugs..its kills..but u always want more..always want it to last longer...but it wont....tears roll down my eyes as i watch and listen in jealousy..try to cover up evrything i feel...but cant..cant hold it bak..

~GaY~

2004-09-23T04:41:14Z

the awesomeness bestowed upon casey bryan lowe is beyond human comprehension..he truly has a mind set like no other...............too bad he hates me..........................

~UmmmmM...GaY~

2004-09-16T05:07:30Z

yeah umm skool is pretty gay..but hangin wit friends is cool i guess...and sum good times..hotties...so today me an megan went to mesa and got sum free food and drinks...yummy..and juanyboy was there so it was awesome..hahah..mooch ! lol good times babe...then latr we met casey bryan lowe..kevin, and kyle up at megans house so it was cool... but then my gay ass madre made me cum home...damnit..life sux for me...but i luv those guys wit a passion..their amazing ! too cool ! haha twins....i luv it...mmmmm...and dominic fredrick pape..we may not talk but..ur still a sexy beast....yes...and mike dupree...to sexy for his shrt..to sexy that it hrts !

~UmmmM..GaY~

2004-09-16T05:03:35Z